Sometimes you need 30 days...

I took a month off...from Youtube and a lot of my other social media sites. I found that I needed some time to think about my future and plans. Not much has changed. My husband did come home from school (ALC) on the 4th of July and it was great. I had butterflies and was so happy he was home...but in the back of my mind, I knew what was to come.
I haven't seen much of Chris since he has been home. His job keeps him most of the time and on some days it feels like he isn't around. Yesterday he worked from 4am-10pm and I was a bit shocked...because he hasn't been in a "regular line" unit since we met. I was spoiled with no field days or training days, but most of all, spoiled with no deployments. So this is all very new to me and I am trying to adjust. 

At ALC

 Christopher has been in the Army for almost 10 years and he had just completed his 3rd deployment when we met, so the time we have been together has been a joy, not too much to worry about. Spoiled I know. Now that we are back in the United States, he has been super busy, something I admire and envy I suppose. Is it wrong for me to have envy? I have envy sometimes because I want a career of my own. That is what I have been planning this past month. Figuring out details and how much will be spent on daycare if I do apply for a job. I did apply for one, and am anxiously waiting.
One of the other things that has been weighing on my mind, is Chris' and my decision to re-enlist. I say "my" because he very much values my opinion on the matter. Some days I do admit, I want him out. It's those days when he comes home super excited about helping his soldiers out that I know he is a great leader. His unit needs him and I understand as much as I need him, I cannot be selfish.
After his long day of work yesterday, he came home and apologized that his uniform smelled of sweat and gun powder. He had spent all day at the range in the 85 degree weather. In my mind he couldn't have been any more attractive...it was quite hot actually. TMI TMI!! You ladies I am sure know what I am talking about. I was just happy to have him home, as I mentally prepare to see much less of him in the near future.

Treasure each moment.


So I do want to take this time to apologize for my absence. I am returning slowly. I have been doing a bit of reading and I will share that with you soon. Thank you so much for reading my blog. You mean a lot to me.